Death of a Strong Woman

I heard it.  I wanted to pretend I didn’t hear it.  That ringing of the phone in the middle of the night could only mean one thing.  I didn’t want to answer it.  I wanted to live in a world a little longer of where my Mom was alive.  But, alas, I had to answer.  Yes, she is gone.  Mom slipped away in the wee morning hours, holding Paw’s hand.

I was oddly at peace.  But I know why.  God’s promise – that is why.  The most important lesson Mom taught us was Jesus died on the cross to save us from our sins, and believing and trusting that, we would have eternal life in heaven.  I can temporarily step out of my selfish grief and rejoice for Mom for the reunion she is having now.  I know there are days of tears and pain ahead, but God’s promise and love will pull me through this.

1 John 2:25New King James Version (NKJV)

25 And this is the promise that He has promised us—eternal life.

Mom was – oh how strange that sounds – ‘was’ – past tense – Mom was a fierce defender of her family.  She prayed so hard for us.  Now I know I have a tiny, mighty champion in heaven, and that is comforting.

I choose not to look at Mom’s death like a terrible burden of sadness.  She is free.  She is free of anxiety and worry that plagued her.  She is free of pain from a 95 year old body.  Momma is hugging her son and daughter that she has missed for so long.  It is Eric and Donna’s turn now.  They are having a heavenly reunion with our Momma and that brings me true joy.

 

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2 thoughts on “Death of a Strong Woman

  1. Oh Gretchen, I wish we were there to help comfort you. It is so hard to let go of those we love. Your Mom was a special lady, one of God’s mighty warriors walking thru life and now her reward is walking with God eternally. Your Mom will still be defending you, Kris and the rest of the family from afar. We love you so much. Our prayers for you and the rest of the family continue. Uncle Johnny and Aunt Betty

  2. Gretchen, I am so glad your mom instilled in you a faith that enables you to turn to the Lord in this time of sorrow. I am especially touched that He is guiding you to take the focus off of your grief and redirect it to the joy your mom is now experiencing. I pray that you, the family, and Ms. Gladys’ friends will not see each day that passes as one more day without her, but one day closer to being reunited and never again having to say goodbye. Love you, Bobbie

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